madzzzzz

Sat, 29 Oct 2005 04:24:42 GMT

i know i said i was staging a strike but i feel like being philisophical so here goes.

i feel odd right now.. i dont have a clue about whats next but know that its up to me from now on which kinda scares me.i dont really have a choice so im just gonna go with the flow. Nick and i are going on a break so im not really sure what that means for the future. i know that its for the best but it is hard to let go of something that is so important and such a big part of your life. We are continuing to see eachother til school is over cos neither he nor i can handle that kind of stress right now.... in a way it was mutual... we both have alot of life decisions to make and we cant let a teenage relationship get in the way of that. when you 17 and 18 youve gotta think, where next? cos i think sometimes i let my emotions take over reality. It will take some getting used to cos neither of us want this but now we'r in the big wide world you've gotta think about yourself and wher u wanna go and not be influenced by anyone else. i do love him and because i do i want him to make the right decisions about his life.. i think my biggest fear is losing him altogether and it feels better to know that i wont whether thats as friends or together i dont know. i think im handling it ok really... im trying to be lateral about things even though it does hurt that i cant be with the person i love, well really the only person ive ever loved.Rather than tears im just feeling blank and trying to make sense of it all it seems too soon to me and i think its just that the timings all wrong right now but maybe it will be again i dont know?
but i think it will all work out in the end.im a big believer in whats meant to be. so as you can see although the stress of school is nearly over and im so relieved about that... i still have alot of shit to work out. first and foremost i need to grow up my life is way too cushy...i am happy about whats to come but it is daunting for me....cos its all up to me from now on... scary scary.... but anyway thankyou for listening to my long rant about my life lol.... i think i just needed to get it all down on paper...xxx love you all

Wed, 26 Oct 2005 11:09:33 GMT

hate to break it to you people but i am staging a livejournal strike... ARE YOU IN? i spit at livejournal now... myspace is all that and more.... my new addiction.... haha..... MY RELATIONSHIP WITH LIVEJOURNAL IS OVER. THATS RIGHT O.V.E.R!......

Fri, 09 Sep 2005 10:43:00 GMT

why heloooo everybody! how are we all?.... it has been a while... busy busy busy work work you know how it is... im home on my friday night which sucks im meant to be studying but havent got around to it yet... carlz and i went to kmart before and while walking home saw a man pushing his kid in a trolley cos he was too fat to walk... bahaha we laughed :-)dont start me on a obese people..... haha im soooo mean but anyway..........
I WAS ON TV ON WEDNESDAY! yay... me and scottie went to sydney to see alex! met all the channel v people.... on the downside got fined on the way home which sucked arse so fucking angry GRRR but hopefully we should be able to fix it but geez not like i stabbed someone! its so s-t-u-p-i-d! anyways i better start working, hope your all out having fun on my behalf... well at least i know nick isnt cos he has turned SPOCK haha raaandom, bye kids luv madz xxx

Fri, 29 Jul 2005 12:23:25 GMT

YO WHATS UP IN DA HOUSE PEEPS!?

i have been a very lazy lj'er............. sorry................

SCHOOL SUCKS! i have had barely any sleep.... PIP and HISTORY EXTENSION are the death of me!!!

but anyway.... i am now 18.... clubbing is gooooooooooood, even though i have only been once cos of damn school... sigh!

i WILL BE SO HAPPY WHEN THESE TWO WEEKS ARE OVER!

I can hang with my girls again! Carlz,Erica(naaaa ;) Tessy ( i miss you :-(.... Sarah, Chlo Bo Baggins! matty the flange............... mwaaahhh!

Nicholas is the sweetest in the world :-)

ciao darlings xoxoox

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 07:39:47 GMT

ITS MY BIRTHDAY ON SATURDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :-) YAYAYAYAYAYAY 18 YEARS OLD!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOO EXPECTING MESSAGES PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! xoxox

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 07:43:29 GMT

hey peeps and pimps.......... i have nothing to say hmmmmmmmmm i just thought i should write in here cos i have been lazy... im sorry i hope you can all forgive me..... :-( how are we all? looking forward to the hols! woot i know i am.... only downside is i will be studying but im sure i can fit some fun time in :-) oh and just one thing....
carlz is a hot spanky monkey..... rika is my naaaa-sister..... sarah smells like flangey flange... chlo bo is my little smitten bobbly... matt pushes my buttons............ Nick is my boy he likes zebras alot.... i love him he is precious hehe....... have fun people xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Tue, 24 May 2005 09:03:11 GMT

woot woot woot im sick!! yay dont you love it just what i need right now :P.............
oh and it looks like im gonna fail my hsc............. mr nelson called me into her office did the talk along the lines of 'pick up your act you're shit forget ever having a successful life BLURGH!......... so i will just cry... haha nah its a wake up call.... its good....its a turning point.... I HOPE!!!
you guys have to help me so im not a failure!

sat night key words :

aaron.... carly... awww ....trampoline....Nick... i love that kid....
feel how hard this is?.... reminiscing of old times.........rnb.... fluoro lights.... :-).... fun times...

take it easy peeps ....xxx

Mon, 09 May 2005 07:32:24 GMT

Its all good now girls... :-) yay!! fighting isnt fun is it now... ha ha

i havent really got much to write i just thought i better write something cos i havent for AGES! naughty me...

weekend was GOOD! finally some fun for a change hey! yew!

kim got me flowers! woot! i love her!

I LOVE ALL YOU GUYS SO SO SO MUCH!

Carly is my lesbian lover
Georg is my moonface
Ilina is my little bitch
Kim is my randy rebel
Erica is my horsey pal
Chloe is my little precious
Tess is my obese monkey
Sarah is mentally challenged
Cameron is my adonnis

you can write your own if you wanna! ha ha this should be interesting...

love always xoxooxoxoxox M

Mon, 25 Apr 2005 10:39:42 GMT

SUP G'S!!!!

Leahs was fun!!! interesting watching drunk people when your sober!! haha....GEORG and ILINA had very big nights!!! hahah........... nice work girls ;-)

CRIMINAL GUY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahahahhahahahahahhaha...........!!!!!!!!!!! i wanted him bad!! im sure all the girls did..... he seriously looked liked he should have been wearing an orange jumpsuit and have a ball and chain around his ankles dont you think!!! hahahah OH MY GOD SO HILARIOUSLY FUNNY!!! well ill stop for all those who werent ther... and cant laugh with us...

is it just me or are you all depressed that we have to go back to school!!! im missing the sleep ins already hey!! but the quicker i go back the quicker all my work is DONE, OVER... FINISHED! yay..... :-)

and when you guys talk to carly can you please tell her im not interested... cos its starting to freak me out how she keeps trying to hit on me, WE'R FRIENDS CARLY! that is all.... cos im starting to get scared when i stay over at her house..... and im sure its not just me who feels this way ok.... erica... tessa...sarah.... back me up....

but anyways i better be off............. xxx Fat arse

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 08:03:52 GMT

helooooo everybody....... did i mention before the hsc sucks...... mmm yep well it does majorly... which means ive become a hermit in my own house and to add to that im SICK! yay :-) one good thing afer another........... woot....! ok things i hafta do----------->
+ WRITE MY PIP!!! all 6500 words of it!
+ EARN MONEY!!! cos ive spent it all............... whoops
+ get better....
+ eat more asian lollies with ilina :-)
+ start going to church and become a good little christian girl (cough)
+ stop hurting people..... such as people of the opposite sex.... mainly....
+ get fit and stop eating so much Bakers delight... cos ill become a huge BITCH
+ generally organise my life...........
+ go to sydney and get to the shops... yay
+ dont become a depressed. suicidal, maniac before the end of the hsc...
+ get into UNIVERSITY.........please god...

so thats it...well most of you have all that to come..... just warning you guys cos its not fun!!!... except for the 18ths! :-)woot

oh and by the way RYAN IS HOT...REALLY HOT, not that you need to be told unless you're severely disabled and have no eyes hahahahahah...............;)

Wed, 13 Apr 2005 13:18:40 GMT

THIS IS THE MOST BORING HOLIDAY EVER!!!!! i sit at home... planning to do work... which never gets done and i have this HUGE F*****G THING BARING OVER ME CALLED THE 6500 WORD PIP!!!! yep thats rite...
P-I-P= NO LIFE......... AND i havent started......................sigh

and to add to it i got DUPED/SCAMMED/RIPPED OFF by some asshole who came into work and confused my little head and STOLE FROM me :-(......... im gonna to hunt him down!!!! GRRR IM SO ANGRY RIGHT NOW!!

other than that its all good................carly got new wave zone boarshorts, a hang ten vizor and maui jeans... woot she's so lucky!!! she's going to be the coolest kid on the block..........

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :-)

Fri, 08 Apr 2005 10:44:57 GMT

hey peeps and pimps!!! how r we all...? excited bout the holidays!!!! i know i am as exams were DEATH!!! DAMO's 18th tommorow night!!!! lets just put it this way im gonna hav a BIG hangover on sunday morning!! gonna be so much fun!!! :-)......well im off!!! hav fun ppl! peace out....................

la la la la la

Mon, 04 Apr 2005 02:45:59 GMT

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalaalallala IM BORRREDDDDD!!!! grrrr! entertain me........... i was hoping matt might reply to that.....? PLZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ hahaha...... im just sitting down cotemplating writing a screen play intro for an hour and a half tomoro yay! and to add to all that Jerry Springer wasnt on!!! not happy!!!
im outta here, take it easy peeps and pimps...............

Sun, 03 Apr 2005 08:00:29 GMT

heyyyyyyyyyyyy kids!!! wish me luck for my society and culture exam tomoro... im gonna die a long slow and painful death............ :-/ wont be pretty!! then i hav two more... dont u luv yr 12........ARRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh!!! but i earnt lots of money this weekend woo hoo..... which i will most likely blow at charlies maaate haha..............................hav fun everyone!!! xox

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 09:36:38 GMT

eh eh ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! i miss Anne!!!

heyyyyyyyy

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 06:09:21 GMT

Hey everyone!!! finally ive given in and got one of these things!... yes i know im a follower... its only cos i wanna be as sexy and hot and popular as carly and matt!! yep its true... well really im just bored, i should be studying but im sick of it!!! i wanna get out of this house arghhh!mmmm but sarahs 17th is tonite!! yay!!! should be a good nite... ;)... haha... fun times....!!! but then im working ALL day sat and sunday... thats my life work work work ha ha ha not really just feels like it..last night me carlz and tess went shopping at charlies maaate!! and carlz pushed me round the charlies car park in a trolley and was trying tp push me in front of cars..BITCH haha. and we pissed of the trolley guy woooo hahaha ohhh well...take it easy people.... xoxoxo